Where Eternity Starts
Every day I awake
and recreate
all the pain that regains
its power inside of me
I look outside
stare at the world
and wonder how much longer
I must endure
the pain that’s inflicted
so many times
from so many places
with nowhere to hide
the only good that comes
from each passing day
is one less to live
one nearer my grave
but soon I’ll escape
this hell where I burn
to no longer breathe
and no longer hurt
I will be saved
all pain will stop
six feet in the dirt
where eternity starts
Six feet in the dirt where eternity starts
A bottle of pills
fresh razor blades
guided by suicide
the cutting begins
quickly I strike
deep through my skin
feeling tendons tear
I convulse in fear
from wrist to elbow
a flash flood of blood
irreversible
damage is done
hemorrhaging
in unthinkable pain
I second-guess decisions
made before the incisions
alone and mistaken
I cry for help
nobody hears
an ugly death nears
I await my last breath
and beat of my heart
six feet in the dirt
where eternity starts
Six feet in the dirt where eternity starts
Slowly, I’m lowered
into my grave
numb and motionless
in silence I lay
with my beliefs
in the afterlife
validated
while I waited to die
no angel of mercy
no angel of death
no gods that were promised
nothingness exists
now reality lies
from the seeds that were sown
staring up to the sky
through unflinching glass eyes
freed from emotion
all hate and love
embraced by the soil
from the shovels above
forever in peace
from pain I depart
six feet in the dirt
where eternity starts
Forever in peace, from pain I depart
six feet in the dirt where eternity starts